grace

moved

2006-07-04T21:32:00.000-06:00

i will not be blogging on this anymore.
check my msnspace.

one-liners

2006-06-25T22:13:00.000-06:00

our church has a pastor (starting in January).
i tan easily.
i hate beartracks.
i am going to edmonton this week.
i played soccer today.
being nice to people who aren't nice is hard. Very hard.
the harvestmoon festival lineup looks pretty intense.

work and play

2006-06-21T21:52:00.000-06:00

so now i am part of the work force... it's pretty sweet cuz right now all we're doing is 'training', which consists of playing games such as tag, freeze tag, tv tag,etc., ultimate frisbee, playing with a parachute, and many more games. other than playing games, we brainstorm other games to play while throwing a frisbee around. then after all this 'work', we take a 20 minute break cuz we're so spent. Oh, the life of a training day camp counsellor.

HAHAHAHAHAHA the only bad thing is that i have to wake up at 6:30 instead of 10:00, which causes me to come home tired. so, i guess you could say, work tires me out... although work and play for me right now is a bit ambiguous...

i also work with 7 girls. the only other guy is my boss. if my boss were a female, it would be even weirder. but it's kool now. the girls are pretty kool... not as kool as boys, but you know, u can't have the best all the time. HAHAHA~ plus they're all taken... not like i wanna take or anything... or ... ya... no... anyways...

today i went to prayer meeting at church. i take prayer for granted. actually... i think i take pretty much EVERYTHING for granted... hopefully this causes you to stop and think about how you can maybe not take something for granted today~

What did Zero say to Eight?
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"Nice belt!"
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

sometimes

2006-06-19T21:28:00.000-06:00

sometimes belief is not enough.
i too thought alberta was oil-rich, but i guess the storm was too powerful.
How's that for imagery?!?!

persecution

2006-06-16T14:55:00.000-06:00

plz check out www.persecution.com and sign up for the email list so you can pray for Christians being persecuted around the world. i was so naive... i had no idea this was still happening until i read the book Jesus Freaks, which led me to the Voice of the Martyrs, the organization who runs the site. Some of the stories and pictures are graphic, but sadly, also very very real.

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anberlin's coming to calgary! i probably wont' go, but i just thought i'd make some edmonton people jealous... MWAHAHA

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chores

2006-06-15T17:24:00.000-06:00

so my mom and i are cleaning the basement. we move stuff around, throw stuff away, vacuum... i clean up the bar so it actually looks like a bar, not some place for storage... next is the storage room.

my mom tells me to vacuum up the mice poo cuz ... well... its mice poo. i oblige, and in goes the hose. as i am vacuuming, there seems to be a massive MASSIVE dust ball... wait a minute... the last time i saw a dust ball this big... IT'S A DECOMPOSING DEAD DISGUSTING MOUSE!!!

ya this one was ACTUALLY disgusting... it wasn't fresh like the other one... it was ... decomposing.... sick sick sick... my mom, being the amazing and confident woman she is, tells me she will dispose of it. i am, to say the least, thankful.

i hate mice.

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so what about those LUCKY oilers eh?

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prayer

2006-06-11T20:55:00.000-06:00

i believe in the power of prayer.
please pray for my friend Eric who is haveing heart surgery tomorrow. He is like no one i've ever known... probably the funniest and most random person in the whole wide world. you may have read some of his comments on my blog. Yes, he's like that in real life.

I am praying for you Eric.

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so one more week before i work for 6 whole weeks. 6 whole weeks!!! this past week i worked for three days straight and i came home tired every day. how am i gonna lst 6 weeks?!?!?!

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scream
i'm not moving a muscle
speak
it's hard to listen
whisper
i'm down on my knees
silence
i hear every word u say

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i realized i can be really really loud. especially when i'm excited. which is not necessarily good when one should be using their 'inside' voice...

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good news?

2006-06-04T15:45:00.000-06:00

so today is a beautiful day. Our church had a pastoral candidate, and he is looking good. He taught a sunday school class for us a year ago, and just finished another sunday school class last week. i thought last week would be the last time seeing him, but times are achanging. He is a very talented teacher, and i seriously loved being in his class and learning from him. Hopefully, he'll become our pastor, if God wills.

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you whose glorious beauty
is a fading flower
petals wilting
disconnected floating
dead before you hit the ground

you whose glorious beauty
is a fading flower
fade no more
do not rely on verb
only in grace can life be found

boo

2006-06-01T15:56:00.000-06:00

so... no edmonton cuz gas is expensive and i have no job...

so today i helped my mom do some gardening. Actually, it was just pulling out weeds, and DANG do weeds have long roots. I pulled out this one weed, and seriously, it was like a foot long of root. so sick. and then it got really hot, so i took my shirt off, and i ran around with my dog and he tripped me up so i fell in the grass, and now i'm all itchy... i think i might be allergic to grass...

last night was so weird. i started thinking about antifreeze (why? i have no idea) and then pretty much the whole night i couldn't sleep. dang... good times.

*HEY PETER LOOK I'M BLOGGING! just thought i'd let you know*

so i've been talking to a lot of my guy friends, and there seems to be this pandemic going around that causes stress and irregularily fast heart rates and high blood pressure and stuff like that... it's called Girls. HAHAHAHAHAHA

Woe to that wreath, the pride of Ephraim's drunkards
to the fading flower, his glorious beauty,
set on the head of a fertile valley - to that city, the pride of those laid low by wine!
- Isaiah 28:1

Can ANYONE please tell me what that means??? i am confuzzled

i don't think i can write about any one thing for more than a couple sentences... how am i gonna write essays?!?! sick....

badminton

2006-05-30T23:05:00.000-06:00

i pwned my brother at badminton tonight.
it felt good.

i ate mango ice cream today.
it tasted good.

life is good.

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so here's my tentative schedule for the next few months, just in case anybody in the cyberworld would like to know, but more cuz i need to remember...

June 7-9: work ("Work?" you say? josh? work? why yes! i am working three days as a substitute with my sister as a Grade 6 Science Review Instructor where i get to set up stations with trees and space and detective stuff and aerodynamics!!!)
June 9: potluck! and rolling down hills (maybe)!!!
June 10: hm... crap i know i'm doing something... but i forget
June 15 or 16-18: EDMONTON!!! hopefully...
June 19 and on...: work! yay
August: Camp, Newfoundland?

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well there you have it folks, the life of josh encapsulated in a timeline.

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so my dad bought this car... and it is very smooth... and fast... although when ur flooring it, it's so smooth it duzn't even feel like ur accelerating... duz that make sense??? but dang.... so... *drool*.... *pass out*...

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wut is action without thought?
wut are words without motives?

i'm baaack!

2006-05-28T21:35:00.000-06:00

so after a week of no msn, email, blog, facebook, eo, cp, etc. (with one slipup) i am back online. this feels... nice? i duno...

anyways, i can't believe its almost june!!! like... not may anymore!!! but june!!! what have i done this month?
- i moved back home
- i worked one day (which was last friday)
- i slept
- i woke up
- i watched movies
- i watched the flames lose, and the oilers win... and they're still winning... ?!?!

i would have to say this was a very productive month! yay!

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hiking not at heart creek

2006-05-18T18:44:00.000-06:00

HEY LOOK I'M NOMI I TAKE NICE PICTURES OF FLOWERS!

so today my sis and i drove out to heart creek, "about 80 clicks from here" (50 minute drive?), for a hike. but alas, as fate would have it, it was closed for construction. I never knew hiking trails needed construction! but i guess they do... so... we proceeded to drive around looking for a trail, and we come across this gravel road off the highway. My sis slams on the brakes and squeals the tires, all at the same time turning onto the road. (My sis really wanted to go hiking)

And so here we were, at some unknown spot off the highway. We begin our hike, and realize by these really small signs that we are on the Trans Canada Trail... like that means anything.

break for lunch on this dried up river/creek. there are huge boulders so we sit on them. after lunch, i explore the dried up creek and discover a climbing rope is fastened to onoe of thewe hike for about an hour, and nature is just so overwhelming. i love it. anyways, we decide to boulders with a screw! and what do we do? We climb down this boulder, belaying down the rope like pros. Man, that was fun, i thought, i hope there's more... lo and behold, not only are there more ropes and more cliffs and fun stuff like that, there's logs that we hafta balance on to get over stale water, there's wet, slippery rocks that we have to cautiously tip-toe over, and there's a ladder made of pipe and two thick branches!!!

We go down the whole creek amazed at the beauty of what the force of water can do, and the sheer excitement of feeling like Frodo. the whole hike was like an obstacle course... pure awesumness

actually, we never went down the whole creek... cuz we wanted to find the trail back... but then we got lost... and that kinda sucked... but then we found a trail... and hiked up ... the wrong way... and then we went the other way... and it was the right way! yay!
but on this trail, we found... a dead deer!!! well... not actually a dead deer, but its rib cage and vertabrae and skull... pretty freaking crazy to see that lying right on the trail.

anyways, that was my day. it was pretty exciting.

***On our hike, i met Mr. Stupid Butterfly. Enjoy~***

conversion

2006-05-17T23:01:00.000-06:00

oilers... play... good...
michael... peca's... goal... was... nice...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i feel horrible for saying that
dang... oilers are so much more exciting to watch then the flames... maybe cuz the flames aren't playing...

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having no job... is very relaxing.

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i am sticky. and sweaty. and stinky. and brown. yay for summer!!!

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so i've got this feeling that just won't go away
it's good and bad all mixed in one
i don't know what to make of it really
i guess time will tell, like it always does, sooner or later

are these butterflies or just indigestion?
sweat from stress or just plain elation?

staring at the ceiling that i hope will drip away
so i can see the falling of the sun
stars come together to form a white lily
time has told, like it always does... flawless creator

the standard

2006-05-13T16:42:00.000-06:00

there's this standard
that seems impossibly high
and logically, it is
but that doesn't mean we cannot try

"you'll never reach it if you keep thinking like that"
you'll never move forward if you're full of regret

so adjust
learn to trust
move
just move

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i'll never be who you think i am
you'll never know who i really am
until that day
until that day

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Damsel in Distress!

2006-05-11T22:36:00.000-06:00

Damsel in Distress, starring:

Joel as Joelina
Noel as Train #1
Moos as Train #2
Eliora as Train #3

Filmed and directed by Josh Wong at Bowness Park. Enjoy!

Damsel in Distress!

1989

2006-05-09T21:50:00.000-06:00

1989
tianamen square
berlin wall
fall fall fall

1989
smoke in the air
uninstall
fall fall fall

death and drums

2006-05-08T12:13:00.000-06:00

so i decided today, that i would begin practicing on my drum kit again.
i go downstairs, proceed to take out my cymbals from their case, reposition stands, etc. i go to move my crash stand and as i look at the floor, there seems to be a HUGE dustball. i look again, and this dustball has four tiny feet. THIS AIN'T NO DUSTBALL!!! IT'S A FREAKING DEAD MOUSE!!!

my heart is on the verge of exploding. my breathing is sporadic. me and death don't mix too well you see. anything dead i see just sends shivers up my spine (like that feeling you get sometimes right after you pee). i don't think i'm going to practice drums for a while now... someone come help me dispose of the mouse please... please.... pretty please...

a snippet

2006-05-06T22:28:00.000-06:00

i let you down all the time
i let you down all the time

there's nothing i can say
that will right these wrongs
there's nothing i can do
that will bid them adieu

now that i'm home without a job, i am finding more and more everyday that i am wasting time. and yet, stuck in this rut, i am finding it harder and harder to break free. Laziness clings to me, or is it the other way around?

today, i ate a whole pizza. now i'm full.

Best Catch EVER!

2006-05-06T00:36:00.000-06:00

so here it is ladies and gentlemen, a little bit modified version of "Best Catch Ever!", by Josh Wong. Cast includes Serena as Best Catch EVER!, Nomi as The Fisherwoman, and various extras.
Enjoy!

http://www.ualberta.ca/~joshuaw/Nomi%20the%20Fisherwoman.wmv

snowboards and sunburns

2006-05-04T22:43:00.000-06:00

so today... woke up at 6:30 am, again. yesterday i woke up at 6:30 cuz i had to drive my parents to the airport cuz they are now in australia. today, i woke up at 6:30 cuz i went snowboarding!!! woohoo!!!

yes! snowboarding in May!!! with a bunch of people from edmonton and calgary! sweeet what more could you ask for; friends, snow (in May), and great weather! ahhh..... 'great'... great is only relative...

most people would say that blue skies and sunshine would be great, but alas, for me, it was my doom. because of these blue skies and sunshine and my own stupidity, i now have a wonderful superbly attractive sunburn across... my whole FREAKING face.

great... just great...

but man, there better be snowboarding in heaven... but no wiping out.

anyways, it's pretty crazy how small the world really is. so Jordan's bro Nate has a girlfriend named Sarah, and Sarah's brother is my friend Dan. CRAZY. and Noel is family friends with Sarah and Dan!!! CRAZY!!! and all these people came snowboarding today, except for dan... but... ya.

and afterwards we went to Sarah and Dan's place and had pizza and watched Mulan 2, which was stupid, except for this one part, where Shang (the really really really ridiculously good looking General) lets go of Mulan's hand and falls to his death cuz the rope Mulan's holding onto won't hold both their weight. So he sacrifices himself for her... now that, my friends, is crazy... but that's the only good part of the movie.

anyways, now i'm home, my face hurts, and i wish i was really really ridiculously good looking.

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I love you,
No matter what you say.
I love you,
No matter what you do,
I do, I do.

home (?)

2006-05-02T00:15:00.000-06:00

So i'm home. but before i get to that, Life Support Spring Camp 2006.

i had the priviledge to lead worship twice, once with eddie, once with jordan and nomi. i also had the priviledge to lead a bedside group. Funny story about that:

So, back in March, when i was still contemplating whether or not to even go to spring camp, Janet comes up to me and says, "Josh! Guess what?!"
"WHAT?!"
"I volunteered u to be a bedside leader for Spring Camp!!!"
"..."

ok, so it was funny at the time...

anyways, i prayed that spring camp would not just be a time of fun, which it DEFINITELY was, but a time where God would come down and change every single person's life.
And i believe He did.

the first night leading worship, i was pretty nervous. technical difficulties, musical mess ups, but as we got into the second song, In The Secret, God just totally took over. and what a great experience it is to let God do the work. being able to stand in front of a body of believers worshipping God is just plain wonderful. it's crazy how God plans things. Before spring camp, we were all told as worship leaders that Sunsy's talks would be on relationships, but it was actually The Amazing Race... hm... interesting... but anyways, it all worked out in the end.

God never ceases to exceed my expectations. i pray for one thing, thinking it is a huge prayer, and the next thing i know, he answers it and takes it to a whole other level... frickin amazing.

laughs were spewed, tears were shed, hugs were given, and in the end, life was renewed.

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my last night in edmonton was spent at joel's place with joel and jason and simon reminiscing about Spring Camp... pictures and videos and memories that hopefully will last a long time.

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my last day in edmonton was a blast~ a bunch of us went to west ed, shopped, took some sweet and sexy photos, and then after went to Hawrelak Park for a picnic... kinda... an indoor picnic... with BBQ Pork and sushi... and flesh shrimp chips... played some frisbee, chased some birds...

i just realized the quality of this blog is horrible. but... i don't care...

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and now i'm home. it feels weird. everything is so familiar, and at the same time, unfamiliar. it's been two months since i was last home. everything looks the same, but i feel unacquainted, detached. even being in my room feels weird.

hm... my writing skills seem to have instantly deteriorated.

ok enough of this.

It's Moving Time!

2006-04-26T12:31:00.000-06:00

my last final of the year, Linguistics 101. Let's not talk about that.
My parents came up! and i got to see them! yay! we went to Pagolac for lunch and it was yyyyummy! i think i love my parents.

Anyways, so they brought up the van for us to move stuff with, and then left a couople hours after helping us pack some stuff. i know i love my parents.

so i thought moving would take forever, but jordan and jaz and i pretty much finished it all in one day. Two van loads later, all our stuff and junk (except for this computer and its desk and chair... oh and the microwave) are stored in joel's place.

We titled our work of art The Mountain, by the 3 J's.
It consists of a futon frame, a cabinet, boxes of all sizes, a table, and other random stuff.
If you ever get the chance to go to Joel's place before the end of the month, you will have the rare chance to lay your eyes on our masterpiece.

after 6 ... or 7? hours of moving, we were hungry, and so decided to try out this place on 111st. called Wasabi cuz my Japanese friend (not Nomi) told me it was pretty good. This girl is TRUE Japanese, all the way from Tokyo!!! man she's kool... ANYWAYS... we go there, lo and behold, it is CLOSED. hm... maybe cuz its 9 pm...

So... we proceed to Yokuzuna, another Japanese food place closer to our apartment, and.... IT'S FREAKING CLOSED. stupid lazy japanese people. Tuesday is NOT your sabbath!

So... my sis wants Harvey's... fine... i haven't had harvey's in a while... we drive up... Oh, the drive-thru's closed (there's a sign on the drive-thru road), hm... the lights seem really dim... oh and the chairs are all put up... WHAT THE FREAK IS THIS?!?!! IS TODAY A HOLIDAY THAT NOBODY TOLD US ABOUT?!?!

cranky, hungry, grumpy, we finally get to a restaurant that's OPEN. Can you believe it?! a restaurant that's open?! who would've thought?! Red Lobster!!! mmm yummy bottomless Cheese Bay Biscuits (i had 5... or more...) ... we ordered 60 different kinds of shrimp... i didn't think it would be that filling, but i guess with all that grease they put in it, plus 5 or more cheese biscuits, plus side orders... ya i was satisfied.

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it feels nice to be free. but what is freedom? is freedom anarchy? is freedom freedom if we live under rules? i've decided, if freedom is anarchy, i don't want to be free.
I am weak, lazy, stupid, and imperfect. I need rules.

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grace.

my walls

2006-04-24T16:37:00.000-06:00

my walls are a naked white. i remember the first time stepping into this place. i remember walking down the hallway. i remember opening the door that would soon be the gateway to our home for the next eight months.

and now, my walls are a naked white. They are awash in evening's sunlight, no longer covered by photos and memories. it's strange how when you think of eight months, it really doesn't seem that long. but in these eight months, i have met some of the greatest and most wonderful people in the whole world.
i have danced like a fool on stage in front of hundreds of people.
i have gone off jumps with a dinky little toboggan/snow board.
i have felt lonely.
i have felt overwhelmed with support.
i have acted in a play.
and much much more. (if you want to hear the rest of it, just send me an email along with a $100 cheque to my postal address) HAHAHAHA

anyways, back to the point, as i said in my last blog, i don't understand why or how God loves me so much, but i am thankful. i am thankful that he has brought me from loneliness to solitude, busyness to peace, and most of all, death to life.

my friend sez ... makes things suspenseful...
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is... there... more... to... come...?!?!?

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Miracles

2006-04-23T20:58:00.000-06:00

this past week has been FULL of miracles.
i don't understand how or why God loves me, but i am definitely not complaining.

I went through a pretty rough week not just with exams, but with things that are of more worth than exams. i'm not gonna elaborate, but let's just say studying was hard to do.

Through all of this, i pretty much put the song Jordan told me about on repeat.
"I'm not alright, but that's ok."
It gave me so much comfort to know that God would bring me through these trials.

To have a perspective on eternity, now that, is a good feeling. Being able to look past the hurdles that were in my way and look to the finish line, is a blessing.

Saturday was the last time i would be going to WEAC (Women's Emergency Accomadation Centre) for a long time since i'm going back to Calgary. every time i go there, God just totally exceeds my expectations and shows himself in the craziest ways. And when i say crazy, i mean CRAZY. Take for example, Carolyn.

Carolyn is one of the cutest ladies you'll ever lay eyes on. The first time i met her, she had a tuque on, and her huge eyes just looked up at me and we began talking. Her opinion on the world seems like it is very negative and pessimistic, but i could see glimpses of hope that shone through the way she talked. i will never forget Carolyn's way of talking; VERY VERY slow, and VERY VERY to the point. in her words, there was no need to bulls***.

Imagine an old lady (old enough to be your grandma if you were white) talking really slow, with big Precious Moment eyes, telling you there's no need for bulls***!!!
FREAKING HILARIOUS

anyways, i got to know her quite well the couple times we went to WEAC. and yesterday, i tell her that this'll be my last time here for awhile cuz i'm going back to Calgary, and she gave me a hug and said "I love you."
This lady... simply amazing.
So we say our goodbyes, and we part ways, Carolyn to her room upstairs, and me to... well... nowhere...

But then, she comes back down with something in her arms. She asks me "Are you cold?" And i replied no... she then proceeds to unfold this super-hot gun-metal motorcycle jacket and tells me to put it on. I decline, I decline again, and again and again. Part of it was cuz i was trying to be polite, cuz she probably needed clothes more than i did. Another part of me declined cuz well... i didn't know where she got it from...

but anyways, she throws away my excuses, and says "Put it on. It'll be our comedy for the night."
How could i decline that?!?!

so now i have a super hot gun-metal motorcycle MIRACLE jacket sitting on my futon.

I'm Not Alright - Sanctus Real

2006-04-21T17:16:00.000-06:00

these lyrics are amazing. go to www.myspace.com/sanctusreal to listen or watch the music video... WOW. i wish i had this kind of talent.
beautiful

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If weakness is a wound
That no one wants to speak of
Then “cool” is just how far we have to fall

I am not immune
I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall

Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth, I need to confess

I’m not all right
I’m broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone

And when I’m open wide
With nothing left to cling to
Only you are there to lead me on

Cause honestly, I’m not that strong

I’m not all right
I’m broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you

And I move closer to you

I’m not all right…that’s why I need you

2006-04-20T20:06:00.000-06:00

i can't live with or without you
u cause so much pain and grief
u take my faith and belief
u trample me like a fallen leaf

i can't live with or without you
you supposedly make the world go round
but you're driving me into the ground
i hope you get lost and never get found

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yes i am aware i took the first line from U2... but there's no other words that describe the way i feel right now... this paradox of living in saturation and yet wanting so badly to wring myself dry, yet if i do, i won't be a part of this world anymore, or will i?

2 more

2006-04-19T23:00:00.000-06:00

2 more... TWO FREAKING MORE!!!

check out I'm Not Alright - Sanctus Real
amazing song... sooo amazing...!!!!! thx to jordan

also check out www.pandora.com
it is wikkid sick my friends...

please pray for me as i have a job interview tmr... to be a Gr. 6 Science Review Instructor. If i get it, summer will be A OK, if not... then... ya... hahaha

be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Romans 12:12

a new creation

2006-04-18T12:12:00.000-06:00

The old has
gone...

The new has come...

My hairy brothers...

not so hairy anymore...

AHHHHHHHHHH

2006-04-18T01:06:00.000-06:00

i just realized how stupid i am.

that last post was very depressing, and to tell you the truth, i am kinda dissappointed in myself.
BUT God is good.
and i'm glad and happy that i get to be priviledged enough to get a post-secondary education!

i have Jesus!
do you?
He's my friend.
Is that weird?
I've never seen him.
sometimes i wonder what he looks like.
but then i remember i see Jesus in my family, and my friends, and well... lots of people.

dang i'm so forgetful how good i have it.
Stop complaining Josh! you're so spoiled! *SMACK* go to sleep!

how fast does the past run?!

2006-04-18T00:50:00.000-06:00

**Disclaimer: Read this only if you're not planning to study anymore!!!***

i am in agony
this whole day was spent studying in some place surrounded by bricks and cement. though there were comfy chairs and friends...

A WHOLE DAY!
THIS day which i will never in my entire life, live again.
this day was spent studying for temporary knowledge, of which we do not even know if it is 100% true.

i am finding pessimism and negativity really easy to come by these days.
meaninglessness is staring me down, and i'm losing the fight.
i won one round, but that victory came late, much too late.

so wut's the point of getting a degree?
do i really need a degree to further the Kingdom?
do i really need all this useless knowledge to please the one i want to please?
do i really need to waste another day cooped up in between four walls and a roof?

i think...no... i KNOW Jesus comes in the form of friends.
probably enemies too, but i usually choose to ignore that.
but friends are nice to have~

reflections

2006-04-15T22:56:00.000-06:00

i will not live this second again
i will not live this hour again
i will not live this day again
i will not live this month again
i will not live this year again
i will not live this life again.

the past is now
and there she goes
running off with your achievements
and your mistakes

the past is now
and there he goes
running off with your friendships
and your enemies

friends turn to strangers
photos to dust
loss of trust
gold to rust

three more years

2006-04-13T23:14:00.000-06:00

i'm going to miss... you.

The Epic of Gilgamesh

2006-04-12T18:52:00.000-06:00

Gilgamesh was the ruler of Uruk, a great city a couple thousand years ago. He has been made into a legend who, it is written, went through a great and many trials to seek Immortality. Death he feared, and it was not backing down one bit.

This was the premise of our drama 149 play.

I played a part of a river, a monkey, a male and female scorpion (all at the same time), a struggle, and a father.

As the monkey, we were supposed to be play fighting and stuff, fooling around, but it got a little too rowdy and i cut my lip. boohoo

one of my main parts was being the male and female scorpion. I had a really deep voice for the male scorpion and a really high falsetto voice for the female. my friend was saying how it could come off as comedic, but cuz of my 1337 skillzor they all understood it as a serious scene. i had a lot of fun with this cuz i would interrupt one of my characters and switch back and forth with my two different voices like i was having an argument with... myself i guess... hahaha

anyways, then i was personified as Gilgamesh's struggle, which was super kool cuz the prof told me to have a really powerful voice and i think it came through.

after the play was over, our whole class was just in a state of euphoria. hugs, high fives, and all that good stuff being passed around the room. Just... wow... there's no feeling to describe the way someone feels after knowing all the crap that this class has gone through

i'm definitely gonna miss everybody (minus the profs) in this class~ we all bonded so quickly and were so open with each other... man...

HAHA and afterwards we went to the plant and everybody drank beer whereas i had apple juice... BAHAHAHAHAHA it was awesum

*why are u reading this? don't u find it boring?*

serena

2006-04-11T22:15:00.000-06:00

this is a picture of my friend serena. it is too good not to share with the whole world. she is modelling a brand new multi-use item. it is a straw, glasses, and last but not least, a fashion statement.

wonderful. just wonderful.

my day

2006-04-11T21:45:00.000-06:00

so i had my phone interview today and it went surprisingly well!
the job is for a teacher assistant/day camp counsellor position which sounds perfect for me except it's only six weeks... boo to that... but i was talking to the lady, crap i forget her name... anyways, i was talking to her and she said she might be able to find me another position before those 6 weeks. if that happens, then praise the LORD! if not, then praise the LORD!

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my sis sez my chin looks like a coconut
my bro sez my face looks gross (but he sez that even without the hair on my chinny chin chin)
i told my mom i was growing a moustache and translated, she said "WHAT? SO GROSS!!! SHAVE IT NOW!!! why are you doing that??? it's ugly!!!"

i love my family.

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i had my first final today, and lets just say i'm glad its over.

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tomorrow i have my drama play, in which i play a male scorpion, a female scorpion, a river, a god, and a struggle. should be utterly confusing

lets just say i'll be glad to never hear my prof's voice again... is that too mean a thing to say?

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tmr is the last day of school.
this year was WOW.
if i could sum up my 8 months here in edmonton, it would be: GRACE

Warped Tour Tix

2006-04-10T22:09:00.000-06:00

so here's the rundown:

Ticket Price: $32.50
Building Facility Charge: $3.75
Convenience Charge: $9.00
Total: $45.25

WHAT THE CRAP IS A CONVENIENCE CHARGE?!?!? that's not convenient at all!!!
gosh... some people...
to go or not to go...

feelings

2006-04-10T15:16:00.000-06:00

feelings of naivety and ignorance come at me from every angle
the more i think i learn, the less i know i know

questions lead to answers lead to questions...

i wish i knew everything
i wish i knew how to stop
i wish i knew where to begin
and take it straight to the top

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so i hate studying. what's new.

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i'd rather be playing squash or basketball... but no... blue skies beckoning and i must refuse...
good music to be heard... but no... studying in silence is the best way...

2 more weeks 2 more weeks 2 more weeks!!!

and somehow in the back of my mind i know i'll miss this once its all over

mewzak!

2006-04-03T22:49:00.000-06:00

The Last Time - Forever Changed

they are now disbanded, which is sad, cuz i just got into them...

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the weekend was UP and down...
and down ... and UP

impermanence.

that's what i'm learning in Religious Studies cuz we're on the subject of Buddhism.
They believe in the doctrine of impermanence.

My question is, Is the doctrine of impermanence permanent?

My life seems to change all the time, and, what would life be if nothing changed? But on the other hand, what would life be without constants either?

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I'm going to miss this

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VANS WARPED TOUR

2006-03-30T23:39:00.000-07:00

Where: Calgary, Alberta, Canada
When: Thursday, July 20, 2006
How much: approx $40 ($35.60 USA)
Why: Many reasons!!!

1. Josh is going
1. Mute Math
2. Emery
3. Paramore
4. Cartel
5. Gatsby's American Dream
6. The Academy Is...
7. Armor For Sleep
8. AND MANY MORE!!!!

but dude... seriously guys, all you gotta do is look at reasons #1 (yes, they're tied) and that's reason enough to go!!!!

so let me know!!! and for all you edmonton folk you can stay at my place!!! and we'll party it up!!! woohoo!!! and for all you calgary folk, you can stay in your respective homes or stay at my place!!! and we can party it up!!! woohoo!!!

stash that 'stache!

2006-03-27T21:24:00.000-07:00

yesterday because of some comments, i became very discouraged.
i became embarassed and ashamed.
i became sad and humiliated.

but then i talked to a friend later that day, and he encouraged me to keep going. to keep perservering. and so, i will continue.

THE FACIAL HAIR WILL CONTINUE TO GROW, ALBEIT VERY SLOWLY.

oh the persecution i endure! oh the pain! the intense pain of the knowing that failure is inevitable, and yet to keep going!

BAHAHA... i look nasty... but then again, its not like i'm out to impress anybody. And also, my other friend said something very nice: if someone is attracted to me, you want her to be attracted to you, not your face. This face i am wearing is no more who i am than the muscles underneath, than the bones underneath them.

That last line i think was from V for Vendetta, which btw, is a wikkid sick movie my friends. i definitely encourage all of you to go and watch it. though there are random weirdnesses in the movie of which i will not mention... but ya... GOOD MOVIE

now i want to be a revolutionary.

and that brings me to my next point. i was talking to another friend about not wanting to just live, but to really LIVE. to totally let go and to change our world. V did it, although his purpose was vengeance... (or was it justice?), but man!

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my thoughts cannot be contained into words right now... i've lost my train of thought... it's crashed somewhere in the back of my mind and i can't seem to find my way back...

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if i let Jesus REALLY TRULY take control, i wonder what will happen. i keep stopping myself tho... i keep telling myself i don't have the faith... how do i get this faith?
where is it located? what does it look like? what does it feel like to have the kind of faith Jonathan and his armor-bearer had to go up against thousands of Philistines?
i want to pray for faith, but then i get scared. If i actually had this faith, what would happen?
i am so weak...

ladies

2006-03-26T15:15:00.000-07:00

"Do any human beings ever realize life while they live it?—every, every minute?"
- Emily, in Thornton Wilder's Our Town

i have taken for granted this gift for 19 years of my life. and i will probably continue to do so...

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i always knew there was pain in this world, but this much? i have been so naive and ignorant. I've turned my eyes away from it all because I don't want to feel what they feel. I don't want to know what they've experienced. I don't want to cry.

The question that continually pokes out like a tree stump in my mind, this tree stump that i always trip over, "WHY?"

Why this? Why that? Why Why Why? this pain that goes on in people's lives. Such intense sorrow and fear and struggle. And here i am sitting in a comfy seat at the computer with a roof over my head and food in my stomach.

And there's Amy with no teeth left in her mouth and an addiction to alcohol and cocaine. Constantly scared of seeing her husband again who's fists not only took all her teeth, but her soul. And there's Rosie with broken ribs and an arm that's been pulled and strained so many times she can't lift anything with it.

Why.

And God says to me, you are the body of Christ. Be Jesus. Be His hands and feet. Wash their feet. Be their servants. Love.

I'm not here to ask why. I'm here to love.

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this stash is getting nasty. i think i might hafta quit.

the Mustard Seed

2006-03-25T14:46:00.000-07:00

so si just applied to work at the Mustard Seed in Calgary for the summer. they had two positions i applied for: Chaplain and Program Assistant.

As chaplain, i would basically be like a pastor... lead worship, counsel, and do other pastor-like things... hahahaha what am i getting myself into?!

As program assistant, i would do education stuff... teaching youth about the homeless... stuff like that.

on the one hand, i really want this job cuz i'm sure this experience will change my life (plus its great pay HAHA), but on the other hand, if i do get this job, the responsibility will be HUGE. i mean, we're talking LIVES here for the kingdom of God!!!

so please, if you pray, plz pray for me. if u don't pray, i guess you could start if you wanted to~

but man... life is so exciting right now. last night i had an AMAZING convo with some guys and having the feeling that Jesus was right there with us was just... WOW.

and today cell group is going to the Women's shelter to help out. i'm sure this will bring us all closer to God and hopefully we will be able to impact these women for Jesus as well.

i guess not getting to go to Quebec might turn out to be a good thing if i get this job.

sori this is really sporadic and random. i can't think properly right now.

i bought new shoes.
i think they're sexy. but this guy working there sed i should've bought these other shoes that were like light brown with BRIGHT NEON orange highlights and i was like ..."uh... no thx" and he was so sad cuz he loved them... but to tell you the truth, i thot they looked dang ugly, tho i tried them on just for him... teeheeehee

this paradox of the perfect communing with the imperfect... HOW THE HECK DOES THAT WORK?!

the time!

2006-03-23T18:12:00.000-07:00

well since we're so saturated in time, i decided it was time (get it???) to put up a clock on my blog!
actually i just thot it looked kool~

and now u can count how much time you spend reading my blogs!
how great is that!
timed procrastination... so wonderful~

Mute Math - Chaos

2006-03-18T21:45:00.000-07:00

for a friend:
CHAOS is a song from Mute Math's self-titled release, and it is... amazing.

enjoy~

CHAOS
Complication's my claim to fame
And I can’t believe there’s another
Constantly just another
Can't avoid what I can’t control
And I’m losing ground, still I can’t stand down
And I know, yeah I know,

I know You stay true when my world is false
everything around is breaking down to chaos
I always see You when my sight is lost
everything around is breaking down to chaos.

It’s hard to trust anyone again
After all the letdowns I’ve been through
Haunted by what I’ve been through
Best to try while I still can breathe
and I’m screaming out give me help somehow
And I know, yeah I know, yeah

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complications, confusions, chaos... all a part of life. so why live? There is still one thing that does not break down into chaos. One person who will never let you down. One purpose that will always light your way.

White Ninja

2006-03-16T16:38:00.000-07:00

www.whiteninjacomics.com

the most randomly stupid weird but funny comic ever. brought to you by my brother~

here's a little sampling~
laugh, cry, or be totally stupified by this guy's genius or idiocy~ ur pick!

the woes of doing laundry in an apartment building

2006-03-13T17:45:00.000-07:00

this just happened like 5 minutes ago... very very traumatic... so traumatic in fact that i am not able to keep this to myself, which is why i'm going to blog about it.

so i go to do my laundry, but both the washers are being used. "Darn it", i say. i'll just leave my clothes here and come back later. so, an hour later, there's a washer with its door open, inviting me to feed it with my dirty and stained clothing. i look into its gaping mouth, and lo and behold, this washer still has remnants of its last meal in its mouth!!! FLOSS, you dirty washer thing!!! this article of clothing, which will remain nameless, was very... how shall we say... noodley, stringy... with a small patch of striped material all convulused into one...

and I, not wanting to share my clothes with such an intimate article of clothing, picked it up with my bare fingers and threw it into the garbage can.

as I closed the garbage can lid, a beautiful young woman opens the door to the laundry room, and i'm thinking to myself... "OH crap, IT'S HERS!! IT'S HERS!! WHAT THE CRAP AM I GONNA DO?! PLEASE PLEASE please don't open the garbage can."

We exchanged greetings, and she goes to get her laundry from the dryer. afterwards, she takes the lint collector, removes the lint, and heads over to the garbage can. and i'm right beside the garbage can, putting my clothes into the washer that she used. "CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!" i scream in my head.

The situation was so tense, i began to sweat. I got ready to explain why there was one of her intimates in the garbage can and try to be civil about it.

But thankfully, even though i think she saw her clothing in the garbage can, she walked away not wanting to embarass me or have herself embarassed either.

i finished loading my laundry, but with side effects. My eye wouldn't stop twitching and my fingers feel numb.

i hope my wife does my laundry so i don't have to be scarred again.

You Are Mine - Mute Math

2006-03-08T20:04:00.000-07:00

this song is from their newest album which i have been listening to nonstop ever since i got it.
so beautiful.

i hope my future wife loves mute math as much as i do, cuz then she wouldn't have to be jealous.

miracle

2006-03-04T15:03:00.000-07:00

kaleidiscope
an array of swirls and twirls
collide down slope
a new hope

an old grace
gift of the defined and divine
that beautiful face
still in this race

iniquities
learning and forgetting
the higher the stake
the more to partake

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it was in my hands, my hands to protect, my hands to take care, but i took it for granted.
the thought of invincibility saturated my mind.
my pride blinded my senses and took over my body.
sorry.

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i got the new mute math cd... and man... i'm speechless.

explore!

2006-02-27T21:32:00.000-07:00

so tammy told me about this program where the Canadian gov't provides you with $1900 (which covers room, food, and class) to go to university/college to learn French for 5 weeks. and all you gotta cover is the plane ticket~

WOW!!! how come i didn't find out about this sooner?!?! the due date is tomoro, and i just finished the application. my first choice was universite laval, which would be pretty frikkin crazy!!!

QUEBEC CITY!!! learn french!!! eat french fries!!! learn to french kiss!!! hm... maybe not the last part... but WOW!!!

i'm excited hopefully i get accepted cuz the drawing is totally random.

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and now for something completely different. nut happy = almond joy

and people DO ride on a camel's hump, except when there's two humps. so no chill ride here for ya~

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feelings and emotions and pain and sorrow
all wrapped into one
causes an explosion that blows into tomorrow
a million bullets from a gun

confusion and no solution and question after question
all piled into one
causes hail and snow and dissension
till the rising of the sun

maybe one day the answers will come
maybe one day we'll see everything as it really is
maybe one day love will be more than a sum
maybe one day we'll see ahead to whatever may come

but not for now cuz we're all nearsighted
not for now
not for now

- to those who want answers now. to those who are feeling. to those who desire. to those... to me.

relient k and mezzanine

2006-02-22T15:05:00.000-07:00

relient k was frikkin amazing!!! but stupid moshers and other sorts of crazy folk who like to hit random people are definitely not frikkin amazing. in fact, i would say, they are quite the opposite of frikkin amazing. they are more like... pure horibbleness!!! that's right! i had to create a word more horrible than horrible just to accomodate for this category of sub-humans!!!

insulent, disgraceful, obnoxious fools.

ok anyways, back to relient k... they were frikkin amazing!!! the drummer had no shirt on!!! so sexy!!! maxeen and rocket summer were ok... but relient k!!! wooohooo!!! and they played a cover of 'take my breath away' which was lotza fun. sadie hawkins dance, be my escape, life after death and taxes... and i can't remember any others...

and i got to see a bunch of my friends from camp and from school!! that was a nice surprise~~

man... relient k... so beautiful...

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yesterday night i went to jonny's band's gig which was pretty sweet. mmm sweet sounds... good job jonny~

just for you jonny!

2006-02-15T20:24:00.000-07:00

so jonny told me to skip class and go home early, and so that's wut i'm gonna do!!!

friday drama is cancelled and so i'll only have linguistics, which serena will take my notes... rite? rite?

woohoo~~~ so i'm coming home a bit earlier~~ yay~
today i worked out. the result? no, not bigger muscles, just sore muscles. boooo

maybe i should do some reading... nah....

OVER!

2006-02-14T19:54:00.000-07:00

midterms are now over!!! until march that is... but man i feel GOOD!!!

and i get to go home on friday!!! i wanna go but i don't wanna go... hm... darn it...

so saturday was LS Formal night, and dang, everybody was so HOT! u can check my msnspace for pix~

so for next year, hopefully jaz and i will be living in Newton Place, the home of many amazing people such as joel and... ya...

i'm excited!!! this post was gay... sorry for its gayness... i'm just to hyper to write anything of consequence

RELIENT K

2006-02-12T22:31:00.000-07:00

so on feb.21 i am going to see RELIENT K in concert!!!

woohooooooooooooooooo this is super exciting!!! thumping bass!!! sickly fast guitar riffs!!! WOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!!

ya ya ya ya!!!

in lieu of this, here is one of my favorite Relient K songs: More than Useless

DOMINAZN day 3

2006-02-09T22:46:00.000-07:00

so hopefully this works

It is our Polar Ice-Caparet with Thriller by Michael Jackson and Dim Sum Girl by Notorious MSG.

Enjoy

not here anymore

DOMINAZN day 3 - POLAR ICE-CAPARET

2006-02-09T18:06:00.000-07:00

Instructions:
Have you ever thought that you could do a better job performing a song than the original artists themselves? Then this is the ultimate event for you! TEams are required to pick a song or a medley of songs and perform a lyrical interpretation, dance, skit or simple lip-sync while the song is playing. Show a flair for inventiveness and ingenuity. Show off killer costumes and mind-shattering air guitar solos. Creativity is a must!

And so it began... we practiced tuesday and wednesday before Antifreeze. Moves were pulled out of Janet's back pocket and inserted into our song, which was a medley of Thriller - Michael Jackson and Dim Sum Girl - Notorious MSG.

Practicing didn't start off so well because I, for one, didn't really want to look like a fool, although that was pretty much the whole premise of the dance. but anyways, the cd was scratched so we took a while to get started cuz ian had to burn another copy... but once we got started and once we got moving, the spirit of DOMINAZN began to flow through all of us. John, i mean Chris Phung, joined our team as well as Em. that was kool cuz well... the more the merrier!

but man... wednesday practice we just went crazy... the sweat was dripping down my wifebeater and i'm pretty sure the room we were in was stinking like nasty BO although i didn't smell it cuz i was a part of it... we must've practiced for at least 2 hours... and then moos came and made us do it again and again going all out~ that was sweet

i was so excited that night.

other acts included a blue man, which at first i thought was gonna be a guy from the Blue Man Group (have u seen those guys?!), but he was actually Genie from Alladin. That group did pretty sweet... they had all the ladies and Alladin, who was actually brown! and the Genie in blue paint from head to belly button. man that was awesum.

so that was a high note. And now for a down note: there was this group who dressed up as ugly UGLY chicks and just grinded and moved around on the stage for a good 5 minutes.... it was definitely one of the more awkward 5 minutes of my life i'd have to say.

another group, D-UNIT had a sweet love story between a gangster and pretty she-man. that was very well played out...

for those of you who haven't seen the vid, let me know and i'll send you DOMINAZN in all its glory~

MUTE MATH CD IS OUT!!!

2006-02-04T15:00:00.000-07:00

ok everybody go to Mute Math's website and seriously consider buying their cd... as probably all of you know this is my FAVORITE band ever and they are FREAKING amazing!!!

if u live in the edmonton area let me know and we can probably save on shipping together...cuz i'm cheap... HAHA

I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DOMINAZN day 2

2006-02-02T22:39:00.000-07:00

i will post instead of sleeping because i promised a friend. so here goes Day 2 of one of the best weeks of my life.

the night was entitled Old Kool, where one player and one alternate would go up against other teams on a surprise video game. we heard rumours of it being HALO 2, but we were wrong. the game was actually Ice Hockey on NES... that's right, NINTENDO ENTERTAINMENT SYSTEM. hence the 'old' in old kool i guess

D-UNIT, a team made up of frat boys, had known about this beforehand and specifically bought an NES and Ice Hockey just to practice. luckily, we were in different divisions.

Phungus and Moos was chosen to represent our team, and when it's our turn to play, moos strips down to wife beater and shorts. phungus changes into goalie pads and a chest pad (?)~ such a wikkid get-up~ moos makes phung piggy back him to the front where they play in front of a ginormous screen.

moos also brings up a bowl and chopsticks and squats like a true azn. props man, props. we win the first game and the whole team is PUMPED. when they go to play the next game, it's mad shouting and yelling. at least i was... hahaha

darn it... i should've written this earlier... i forget the scores... but anyways, i remember they got a weak goal in... booo that... but then phung gets into a fight with the other team and moos jumps up and down the couch doing Street Fighter moves!!! and that, i believe, was the turning point in DOMINAZN history... moos' performance sparked something in all of us... something that i definitely did not think we had, to tell the truth... but we had it alrite, we had it...

we lost that game... but that didn't matter, because something else was just beginning...

home and back again

2006-01-31T17:14:00.000-07:00

dang life is good

on saturday i lost this finger nail polish that was a christmas present for my friend and i was like "AHHHH this sux major!!!" and i prayed and the next thing you know it was right there on top of the newspaper!

coincidence? an answer to prayer? i believe that God answered my prayer. and because He did, how much more will he hear the prayers of those who's pleas are so much more meaningful than finding finger nail polish?!?!?

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so i went home, and ate. A LOT. Chinese New Year's duz that to you i guess...

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i asked my grandpa if i could have one of his sweet vests and he gave it to me... HAHAHAHA its so wikkid and comfy

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so yesterday taking the red arrow bus home, i put everything underneath in the stowaway compartment and brought my snare and a notebook for carry-on. i was thinking to myself "i'll probably forget this notebook"... and lo and behold, getting ready to go to bed, i realize i left the notebook on the bus. the notebook that i need to study for my midterm this thursday. the notebook. the notebook. i stressed out a bit, but after calling myself a fool for a bit, i realized i couldn't do anything about it. i prayed for peace, and i went to sleep.

in the morning i called red arrow, and long story short, i got it back! the funny thing is, i should be studying that exact notebook right about.... NOW.

healed!

2006-01-22T21:18:00.000-07:00

it feels so good to be better, rid of my cold!! tho i still have a bit of a sore throat, but my energy is back. well, it was back... i'm really tired right now after yesterday's coffeehouse 2006 and today's meeting after church... which was all good, just really tiring.

so coffeehouse... was AMAZING!!! it turned out to be really good and very to-the-point~ God is so amazing~ and even though i screwed up royally on the drums, our band still pulled through and we eneded it off pretty sweet with anberlin's Change the World. we also acoustified Green Day's wake me up when september ends and then went into Goo Goo Dolls' Better Days.

i used to not like anberlin, but after listening to this song many MANY times, and learning to play it, i have a newfound respect for them~

i got to meet some new people, and also got to talk with some of my friends about my beliefs and why i believe them. i always feel like ppl don't want to hear. but usually, they do, and it felt good to do that yesterday~

i lost this guy's tambourine and he's pissed... i feel bad...

sunday school was really good today. we talked about King Saul and how he was not the king God had in mind for the Israelites. 1 Samuel introduces Saul as tall, handsome, good-looking... the stuff of a model. but he was naive, ignorant, and well, dumb. i found it very interesting how God is always looking for the weak to fulfill His plan because he can. he doesn't need the strong or the powerful, he wants the weak and the small.

now for another week of school~~~ yay~ i actually like school now. drama is my fave class. tomoro we have to present a short skit. my partner and i are gonna do a silent skit fighting for the last cereal box in a grocery store. should be a good one~

alrite well that's all for now folks~ take care~

sick

2006-01-18T16:32:00.000-07:00

being sick sucks
but other than that, life is pretty darn spanking good

the dominazn story is gonna take awhile... i've gotta catch up on skool first..........

and to everybody concerned, my heart is A-OK!
they took an ultrasound, which was pretty cool, got x-rays, did a stress test, which is running on a treadmill at max speed for a very long time with cords connected to you, and ya~
the tests came out fine~
thx for the prayers!

Part I: DOMINAZN - from the beginning

2006-01-14T18:17:00.000-07:00

well this is mainly for those of you that don't have a clue what i'm talking about when i say the words 'dominazn' or 'antifreeze'. I will post this story that occured over January 9-13, 2006 over a series of posts. this is pretty much for my memory and your enjoyment, so enjoy!

Antifreeze 2006 was put on by the Student's Union of the University of Alberta. I found out about this week-long event from an email sent to me in December right before FINALS from my MUG's (My Undergraduate Group) leader, Carrie, who's team, the Mighty Muggles, eventually won the competition.

i needed to form a team of at least 10, hopefully with 3 alternates, to make a team of 13. i proceeded to send out a wikkid persuading email to my prospects, hoping each would say 'aye Captain!' alas, that is not what happened, and i only got 8 members, definitely not enough to make a team... discouragement overcame me and i said to myself "screw this, it won't be fun anyways"

so i told the other 7 that we couldn't do it anymore. this was sunday night and monday was the deadline to submit your team. as i was talking to one of my recruits, aaron, he was so PUMPED, and i was like CRAPPPP cuz i didn't wanna do it anymore, and he was like "I'LL FIND TWO MORE PEOPLE!!!"

and he did. i was sad.

wut sucked more was another person i thought was gonna be on the team said they couldn't, and so even with aaron's two, we only had 9. i spent a hectic hour before the deadline calling everybody i knew trying to find one more because i didn't wanna let aaron down, but i couldn't find another.

i talked to the organizers and they said they'd let me in with 9. i was like "Crap. You're not supposed to say that."

they asked me for a team name then. I was thinking really hard cuz i wanted something creative... and it came to me. During fellowship one night, our cell group randomly called ourselves Domination during gym time, and i thought it sounded pretty kool so that's what our team name became. TEAM domiNATION. that's how i wrote it. the Nation of Domi. creative? i thought so.

and so TEAM DOMINATION was born.

DOMINAZN!

2006-01-12T16:55:00.000-07:00

John posing as Phungus, Nerdi Nomi, Mooz, Hoo-Ah, Ultimate Micro, Jazminder, Joshephine, and M

all i can say is WOW.

wut an experience~~ dominazn definitely dominaznated last night!!!
we were on FIRE!!! good job team!

being up on stage with a bunch of friends making a fool of yourself in front of hundreds of drunk people, and sober people ... there are no words to describe it.

you guys rock
thx for the fans too~~!!

2006-01-12T16:53:00.000-07:00

a few of our fans rich, jase, and joel

2006-01-12T16:52:00.001-07:00

me and my man from D-UNIT

2006-01-12T16:52:00.000-07:00

DOMINAZN flag created by jazminder with Trogdor and the Liger

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2005-12-25T16:04:00.000-07:00

so today is Christmas. not really JEsus' birthday, but our day to celebrate jesus' coming down from infinite to finite

its amazing what love can do. the love of family and friends is so beautiful

i love love

so for christmas i got socks and a limpy bobblehead dog. sweeeeeeet pretty happy~~~

my hair is short, and it feels good. my sis was cutting it and my mom's like "Your beauty has been exposed!" and we all burst out laughing. i love my mom

i wish we could go tobaganning... but no .... no snow... but i did go skating!!! outdoor!!! that was fun.

here's a new song called Chaos, by... u guessed it: Mute Math

jordan's mom

2005-12-18T16:14:00.000-07:00

jordan's mom is so cool!!! she is one nice lady. One of the nicest i've ever met. So wonderful to have met her, although i forget her name. but that's ok, she's so nice she'll probably forgive me for forgetting her name.

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the lesson i learned today is that people, very unexpected people, read your blog and that you have to be VERY careful about what you write...

i learned another lesson as well: jordan's mom is amazing!!! o wait... i already wrote that...

study v.2

2005-12-15T14:35:00.000-07:00

three down, two to go. hardest one philosophy is next. yay i'm excited...............

my bro bought a strat and it is phat to the max!!
so beautiful red and black.............. o man.......... can't wait to jam~~~~~

weekend of studying

2005-12-11T21:34:00.000-07:00

WOW
friday: study (many hours), bowling with awana kids (YAAAA), simon's place to watch video of him macking on girls back in the day(HAHA), video games at richie's (Flames are better than edmonton ;)), sleep over at simon's

saturday: study

sunday: church, study

these people i study with.. man... they are amazing... nonstop for hours on end... so crazy... thx guys

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drummed for service today~ man it was fun and amazing~ and i get to do it all again next week!!! before playing i was so nervous... i hadn't played in front of people since summer... but after the first song it was so beautiful to feel God's spirit just calm my heart and stop thinking about everything except for Him. being able to drum for God is so awesome. it gives me an excuse to flail my arms and stomp my feet~~

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time for more studying. i'm on a roll!

studying as worship?

2005-12-08T21:50:00.000-07:00

studying as worship... is that possible??? i hate it so much. maybe i just need discipline... ya that's it...

i keep asking that i can study for God and to give Him glory, but then i just get selfish and do stupid things like post on blogger

what a hypocrite

i'm tired of all this knowledge.

we're all so flawed and imperfect
so lost and confused

i covet perfection at no cost

shirt design!

2005-12-07T19:48:00.000-07:00

here it is willson for your viewing pleasure:
you should see wut my other friends did... they all turned out so sweet~~

sword of healing

2005-12-04T22:50:00.000-07:00

so i gotz me a new email at ___________@gmail.com

can u figure it out??? its a tough one but i think i've given you quite a few hints already.

euh... hm... i'm so lame

anyways, yesterday for cell group we put designs on our clothing. there were letters, fabric markers, and this method where you iron on wax paper and bleach around it. SO MUCH FUN!!! and all the clothes turned out really nice, even yours moos!!!

i put a pretty sweet design on my new dress shirt that i got for $7~ YA $7!!!

and after we just shared with each other about our lives, and it was like God just brought in a demolition crew and destroyed the walls of uncomfort and embarassment between us. man it was such a refreshing time of fellowshiping and praying for each other. so beautiful.

three days of skool left. THREE DAYS!!! THREE!!! 3!!!!

9:30

2005-11-30T21:29:00.000-07:00

so i mopped the floor today, and the result is a SPARKLING beautiful magnificent floor meant to be placed in a palace, not worthy to be stepped upon... well that's how i see it anyways... i spent quite a while on it... cuz it was DIIIIRTY

finals are in less than two weeks... and i've got approx 2 hours of studying under my belt... i can feel the cramming already

music

2005-11-27T21:34:00.000-07:00

wow... i've spent countless hours on www.purevolume.com
waste of time?
maybe

but finding so many new bands with new sounds and new music is so... nice
there's no other way to describe hearing a new song and just giving out a sigh of relaxation

here's some kool new bands i just found

circa survive, the academy is..., taking back sunday, paramore, waking ashland

check it out! they all rock~ well at least i think they do

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baptism sunday at e3c
so encouraging to see people getting baptized~ brings back good memories too~

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2 weeks encounting until final #1

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home sweet home on December 20th.

IRON CHEF DOMINATION

2005-11-26T23:04:00.000-07:00

Appetizer: stuffed red peppers with rice, ground beef, select herbs and spices, tomato sauce, all mixed together with 2 heaping cups of love

Main Course: Canneloni - fresh pasta wrap with ground pork and beef, onions, carrots, celery, tomato sauce with super amazing sauce poured on top with 3 heaping cups of love

Dessert: angel food cake plastered with strawberry and cherry whipped cream... i didn't get to taste it... it was all gone before i had a chance... boooo

the result: TEAM DOMINATION inevitably dominates~~~

hehehehe good times~
all the otehr food was pretty good... hehehe... i'm full

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what is so good about relationships that we can get hurt and hurt and still seek more?

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sometimes i wish i wasn't human... then i would stop making stupid mistakes...

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walking alone in the night air is so... nice

extraction of wisdom

2005-11-24T16:27:00.000-07:00

teeth of bro aka teh_julezor

not so hot now are u?! ARE U?!?!

2005-11-24T16:25:00.000-07:00

3/4 view... look at those eyes, they're ready to kill some zergs on starcraft

2005-11-24T16:24:00.000-07:00

bro's wisdom teeth extraction with pantyhose acting as ice packet holder (my mom is GENIUS)side profile

fool

2005-11-23T21:47:00.000-07:00

the song is OK by Mute Math
i probably put this up before, but its definitely one of my favorite songs.

its ok. its ok. its ok. i keep trying to tell myself that, how don't i feel it to be true?
i want this infatuation to be over and done, gone and lost

its over before its begun.

what a fool.

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He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose. - Jim Elliot

Jim Elliot was murdered by a tribe of indegenous people. He and 4 other missionaries were going to bring the Huaorani the gospel of Jesus to them. Anybody who knew of the Huaorani people told Jim and his friends they were foolish. The Huaorani people killed anybody and everybody that came into their land. And yet, they went, for them, to the ends of the earth.

After the Huaorani people killed the five missionaries, Jim's wife and one of the other missionaries' sister went, and God granted them passage. The Huaorani people didn't just hear the Gospel, they saw it through the lives of these people who persisted, even to death.

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I am a fool.

Volleyball and I have a hate/love relationship

2005-11-19T23:19:00.000-07:00

so today at fellowship we were in the gym playing volleyball. i was so pumped for it~ man i got changed into shorts and tshirt and shoes AND A HEADBAND! but there were so many ppl in jeans... i was like wuttttttttttt....
but it was pretty fun~ our cell group/team, the DOMINATION, got split up cuz we were too big... so that was really sad

so many good times... here's one of them:

so it was my turn to serve, "alrite, i got this. No problem!!!"

i was gonna make this one look amazing. So i throw up the ball, jump, proceed my swinging arm motion, and WHIF (that's the sound of me hitting nothing but air)

the ball lands at my feet... and the crowd is ROARING!!! with laughter...

o well... at least i made ppl laugh~~

but it was a good night indeed

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i had the oppurtunity to lead worship tonight as well. i don't know if i brought ppl closer to God, but hopefully~

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Jesus went to 'pagan' nations deliberately to bring light into the darkness. Should we too be light into the darkness? Should we go to our culture's dark places, like bars, clubs, brothels, to bring the light in???

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R U a Pasta Lover?

2005-11-07T21:37:00.000-07:00

that was the name of the restaurant we went to tonite... no joke... i was suspicious, but i shoved that into the corner of my mind and hoped it would be amazing.

so we walk in, and there's a chinese waiter (also the owner i suspect). well this is a little odd... but wutever... the menu is all italian, the lights are dim, the whole place is saturated in Italy and european accents.

as we order drinks, water of course (if ur chinese, u order water. That's the rule!), he asks us if we speak chinese. Taken aback, i stammer, "Uh... uh... ya..."

The whole night would result in us being in a seemingly Italian restaurant eating Italian food, but alas, i could not shake the thought from my head that a greasy, bald, beer-bellied, chinese man in the kitchen making dim-sum while cooking up my pasta...

i'm so racist...

the funny thing was the waiter would translate everything on the menu into chinese food for us, thinking we were FOBs... wut my sister got was Catelloni, which was like a pasta wrap with veal and sauce poured on top... and the waiter told us it was just like "Chaung fun" (the rice pasta thing... like a wrap... its white... with beef or bbq pork or shrimp in it... u kno???) anyways, that was really funny but we couldn't laugh in front of him so i had to hold it in...

i just got a normal pasta dish... but the description of it was so funi: "Wide Wrinkly Noodles with meat sauce... blah blah blah"

WIDE WRINKLY NOODLES?!?! man i gotta have that! turns out, they weren't wrinkly at all... they were more like frilly-edged...

and he came back to check on us like 10 times... he'd come up to us really hesitantly and say "ok?" and we'd be like "ok."

so that was our adventure tonight

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u guys gotta check out justin king... wow... search him up and watch his videos... this guy is amazing

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it's back

2005-11-06T22:24:00.000-07:00

how do i get rid of you? why do you constantly follow me around, paining my heart and soul?
you're presence makes me sick and want to vomit, but I can't... not now...
i want to rip you out of my heart and tear you to pieces, but I can't... not now...

man that sounds pretty mean... hehe its not someone... its this feeling in my heart... this nervous feeling... i've been having it all weekend... not matter what i'm doing, its always there, in my heart. i hate it. it duzn't hurt, but it's just annoying... like a thorn in my side

i have nothing to be worried about, i should feel great, i should be at peace, but i'm not. i wonder if God's trying to tell me something or if it's just a test of patience...

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don't look down
it's time to jump
it's time to let go
make the decision
to live and let death
die

tears stream down
throat forms a lump
pain agony sorrow
fall down your face
all that's left is
hope.

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beck

2005-11-05T14:58:00.000-07:00

stupid jonny give me the link to beck... i read like 45 chapters this week... did nothing else... AHHH
good thing i have nothing due this week... phewf
man i duno why i got so addicted to it... i couldn't stop... well i've stopped now... i'm not gonna read any more till long weekend... hopefully the guy duzn't take it off the server

you guys gotta check out www.relevantmagazine.com and check out their TV thing!!! they've got the coldplay music video for "Fix You" and the first time i watched it i was like... uh... this sux... but i watched it again, and again, and again... man its definitely growing on me

so beautiful

i wanna get their cd now

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today i walked to save on foods to buy groceries cuz my sis is outta town, so no car... i thot it was pretty close cuz it takes really fast to drive there, but... hahaha no
i guess it was good exercise carrying groceries back too~

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yesterday i went to AWANA and it was pretty kool~ except that there are quite a few rebels... man i was like "Hey can you listen please?" and they were like "My name's not Hey, and NO!" wut the heck?! i've never met such bad kids in my life!!! well i have... but these guys are way up there on the scale... it just gives me more passion to change them into little minions of mine... mwahahaha

there was this one kid and i accidently messed up his hair... out of the 70some kids there he was the only one with gel, and he was like mad at me the whole night... and i was trying to be nice to him, and he asked me my name so i told him:
"What's your name"
"Josh" I said
"And you want to be a counselor here???"
"Well, hopefully."
"Well, there's two horrible things about you!"
WHAT ?!?!?!?! how do these kids come up with these things?!?! do they have parents?!?!
but later, i found out his name was...... Josh
HAHAHAHA

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there's still no snow on the ground, but it is definitely getting chillier

drumming

2005-10-31T19:32:00.000-07:00

this song makes me wanna drum
i keep thinking this is the week i get to go home... but alas... it is not...
so sad.. .but on the other hand, i'm actually starting to like it here a lot more~

i've met some really kool ppl and not too many unkool ppl... actually i don't think... no wait... nvm... i have... haha

but anyways, i'm now part of a worship team at church, a cell group, planning to join AWANA, and someone asked me to be on the fellowship committee...

much prayer needed~~

God has been so good to me. yesterday, amidst a lot of rustle and bustle, i read the story of Martha and Mary... and in crept the Holy Spirit and his conviction... i make it sound like a bad thing, but man, it was sooo good and so relieving

even though i'm gonna be serving i need to realize that there's a HUGE difference between serving Jesus and knowing and cultivating a relationship with Jesus.

there's my two cents... now its time for laundry!

peace be with you all~

wandering

2005-10-28T22:23:00.000-06:00

friday night
mind wandering through aimless streets of dark alleys and unlit corners
nobody else here
guess i better go somehwere else
looking for something someone? maybe
purposeless
ode to those who have too much time on their hands while others are scrambling on their hands and knees to make the most of it
crawling scratching and scraping to squeeze a little bit more
to get the best of it

jon tam

2005-10-22T23:12:00.000-06:00

so up here in the "great" land of Edmonton, there is a man named Jon Tam, who you see above. You may know him, or you may not. From the first day i went to his church (e3c), people were coming up to me and saying i look like jon tam. and then i go to another church, and this guy comes up to me and he's like "HEY MAN howz it going?"
and i was like "...uh... hey (ur really friendly)"
and then he's like "OH SORI i thought you were jon tam!"
man this jon tam is popular... and this goes on at every church i go to... at least three people say that and then they go to their other friends and say "Don't u think he looks like jon tam?!"
and they go "YAAA"
and i go "oh my..."
multiply that by like 30 at e3c where jon actually goes.

and then one sunday at e3c, an "auntie" walks by, staring at me. i stare back. she walks backwards and faces me.
"Do you have a brother?" she asks.
"JON TAM?!" I exclaim.
"YAAA" she says with enthusiasm.
"no."
shut down.
hahahaha i had to... its getting sooo weird...

so ya... i've decided to name myself jon tam junior now, in honor of the one and only jon tam.

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fellowship was good today. we had "Meet the Neighbours" night, where we get to be one-on-one with ppl in the fellowship, cuz there's SO many (like 40) that we don't usually get to know everybody. at first i was like man this is gonna be sooo awkward and weird cuz i hardly know anybody, but it was sooo sweet. i met so many ppl and it was so... natural... ahhhh life is good~~ woot

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my sis was like "what do u wanna eat today?" and i was like "lamb."
And she actually made lamb!!! mmm... my sis is kool

hm...

2005-10-18T18:45:00.000-06:00

this song makes me feel at peace... mmm...

if i didn't have my guitar here, i dunno what'd i do... it gives me so much more than music... btw, that's my new guitar strap that i made!!!

so i've got classics history midterm and philosophy midterm... crazy...

augustine is one kool guy. one of his main assertions is that evil doesn't exist. it's just the absence of good... kinda like a shadow is the absence of light.
Now, what does that make Satan? Is Satan an actual being with good because nothing that is purely evil exists... hm...

rite now i'm reading Job, and i found it so funny that in chapter 19 he's ranting, justifiably, how his life sucks, and then all of a sudden "I know that my Redeemer lives..." Wow... to be able to have that faith, that through the most unfair and crappiest situation in life, to be able to give God glory like that... wow...

please pray for me.

teh noob song

2005-10-15T00:26:00.000-06:00

so this video was done when i was back home for thanksgiving~~ music and lyrics from www.purepwnage.com

check it out if ur a geek... i'm not but my bro is... that's how i found out about it...but anyways... before we begin... some GEEK 101 terminology

n00b: beginner, derived from the term 'new', used as a derogatory term. ex. "You're such a n00b!!!"

pwn: derived from the term 'own', used as a derogatory term. ex. "I'm gonna pwn you!" also, pwnerer, pwnage are derived from this term

well, this concludes our INTRO to GEEK 101... enjoy the show (turn up the volume... its kinda quiet)

Oct. 18/05: no more vid... you can ask me for it...

weekend of thanksgiving

2005-10-10T21:06:00.000-06:00

this was a weekend of thanksgiving!
saw my family, uncle, cousins, grandparents, friends... and it was awesum~ it went by so fast... and now i'm back up here... trying to keep on giving thanks, but its so hard cuz i wanna be home chillin with my bro and makin stupid music videos

ah well... at least i got to see them...

now its time to get my butt back in gear, not having cracked open my books the whole weekend... i am ready for you stress! i'm gonna put my swords together and slice you up while keeping my hair in perfect condition! (ff7-ac) haha

o man that was a good movie... their hair is so beautiful...

here's some highlights of my thanksgiving weekend:

- getting full on chicken wings for fellowship
- seeing and hearing my friends
- making 'teh n00B song' music video with bro (hopefully i can put it up here)
- having dinner with family
- getting the center of attention by a bunch of seniors at my church, shaking their hands, asking me how life is~
- sleeping in my room
- watching ff7-ac

man... give thanks to the Lord~ He's frikkin awesum

where did i hear this... i don't remember... but it was like how we, as the Bride of Christ, are so adulterous and does everything to try and make him not important in our lives... filling it up with temporary pleasures because its 'so much better' than the real thing...

i'm like that alot... how do i take out all the crap in my life...

rite now its like i feel so blessed, but at the same time i know i don't deserve any of it...

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anybody know how to put a video up on my blog???

tokyoplastic

2005-10-04T18:13:00.000-06:00

if you haven't been, go. www.tokyoplastic.com
amazing flash animation... WOW... maybe cuz i like drums? and weird japanese girls hitting their heads...??? HAHA

first midterm today... went good~ i think it was cuz it was the first one, my prof didn't want it to be too hard? or maybe i'm genius! haha yes i'm genius!

i'm hungry
dinnertime

Crunch time

2005-10-02T19:00:00.000-06:00

so its crunch week... nothing compared to engineers, but hey.

2 midterms, one assignment, one paper. crunch week. what'd i tell ya?

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so i'm gonna try switching up the music on my site once a week, just to keep it fresh. this week it's stereo by 4th avenue jones. its one of the cds i got for $4 in the brentwood mall, and man is it a sweet cd. i'm not usually into hiphop or rap (crap) (sorry mike) but this is good stuff. its just a fun song about this guy's love for his stereo. i don't think the music works with firefox, so if u wanna hear u gotta use explorer... anybody know how to fix that?

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i'm coming home on thanksgiving!!! o my goodness i can't wait to come home and be... HOME.

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i just finished reading Ezra and Nehemiah, which was really kool. Ezra was a quiet leader, Nehemiah was upfront and more of a 'typical' leader. the mission: to rebuild the temple and the wall of Jerusalem so it could be seen as a 'real' city again. Mission accomplished. and then human nature creeps back in, and sin and evil is seen grasping at the heels of the Israelites again.
And isn't the same with our life? its a constant battle to live for God.

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went to SEAC (south edmonton alliance church) today and pastor Genghis Chan was talking about the parable of the talents. why was the one talented man wicked? not because he didn't use the money, not because he just dug a hole and put it in it, but because he had a lame excuse. and more than that, he put the blame on the master.

he was lazy, and yet he tried to take the blame off of him and put it on his master.

wickedness runs in the family i guess. from Adam, who laid blame on God and Eve, to me. to you. the question: what talent have you thrown in a hole in the backyard, saying its useless and unable to be used by God?

the kid who gave five loaves and two fish for five thousand men was probably not the only one with food, but he was the only one who had the faith that God could use his 'talent'.

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the war in here
is stronger than the war out there
they got bullet and explosion
we got feeling and emotion

its getting near
till its gotten in our lair
they got their propaganda
just look at ah Uganda

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addiction

2005-09-25T21:55:00.000-06:00

just talking with jonny now, and i realized that i've been relying too much on friendships and relationships with other people instead of God... that's why i feel so lonely... because i don't know what it really feels like to have it with just God and Me... its always been Friend(s) and Me, Family and Me, Anybody and Me, and then God and Me.

wut a fool i am...

fellowship

2005-09-25T20:58:00.000-06:00

so yesterday i went to E3C's (Edmonton Chinese Christian Church) fellowship, which was a rally with other churches. it was kool to meet lotza ppl and see nathanael again~ plus i saw a few other ppl i knew too~~

the speaker talked about the fellowship of the Holy Spirit and it was really interesting to hear him talk about that... and at the end he shared a part of his journal from 1992 that was like God conversing with him, which was weird at first... but i was like hey why don't i have that kind of intimate relationship with God where we have actual conversations like friends? cuz isn't that wut we're supposed to be?

this guy named eric drove me, and he is one kool kat. he went to toronto to see U2, white stripes, and sigur ros~ but ya... i never heard of sigur ros, but they are one dang good band... mmmm

white stripes? not for me... haha

but ya... after the rally we went to some guy's house to play poker. and man they're frikkin organized. they set up like two tables and explained all the rules in like 5 minutes and was like ok we'll play this tournament style blah blah blah and i was so impressed~

and guess who won?!?!?! that's right!!! moi!!! i won it all!!! mwahaha

everybody i met was pretty kool~ a lot of different personalities... but not as 'close' as RICE is... haha

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i finally finished my philosophy paper.... i still think its pretty low calibre, but its the best i could do...

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please continue to pray for me... i have this constant nervous feeling in my heart... like when i'm going up to play for a piano rehearsal kind of nervous... and it sux... i duno why i have it... but its like constantly there...

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first midterm in one week. o my

panic attacks and papers

2005-09-20T23:12:00.001-06:00

so i'm anal
i plan so far ahead and when i don't, i get nervous. when i do, and i don't follow it, i get nervous. WHY the heck am i so uptight?

lately i've started experiencing just random times where my heart starts to beat really fast... maybe cuz i'm unconciously nervous or maybe the beating heart is making me nervous... i duno...

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i signed up for a bible study through campus for christ, and today was the first meeting. i got there and found out it was only gonna be me and the bible study leader. well well... we had a good convo tho... he's BLACK!!! woo hoo!!!

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yesterday as i was reflecting, i figured out why i feel so down. i don't belong. i have no friends at UA (well i do, but not close friends...), i have no church, i have no family except for my sis (who's FREAKING AWESUM by the way), and i have no food. haha

but seriously, as i thought more about this, God put on my heart that "ya, i don't belong here, nor do i belong in calgary, nor anywhere else on this earth." this place is not my home... home is coming... and day after day it gets closer to when i'll truly be home. and i CAN'T wait cuz this place now is sucking. sorry to all u edmonton folk

its not really the city that's bad... its more like i just feel... lonely
people say that uni is supposed to be the best four years of your life, but right now i just wanna get these four years over and done with and get out.

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why am i complaining? i should be thanking God that i can have the priviledge of postsecondary education... i should grateful for a roof over my head and a bed to sleep on... but i'm not...

Oh the vice of being human... complaining is so much easier than giving thanks...

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ok lets give thanks

i have a sister who's here with me... who's going through the same thing i am...
i have auntie and cousins here
i have a brain
i have music
i have a computer
i have toilet paper blinds
i have God

2005-09-19T22:32:00.000-06:00

my family minus the julezor and my granpa

2005-09-19T22:24:00.002-06:00

my bed and shelf

2005-09-19T22:24:00.001-06:00

my blinds ... i have real blinds now tho!

2005-09-19T22:24:00.000-06:00

yes those are chopsticks and duct tape to hold back my bed sheet (also connected with duct tape) cuz i have no closet door